Repost

I'm reposting something from my old blog that I feel rings true for me today:

One of my least favourite things in life is driving on a dark road at night. Living out in the country, I've found myself having to do this very thing on a regular basis. Night driving is never fun at the best of times, but add a storm to the mix and it is downright unnerving. It is hard to see where the next turn is coming and sometimes all you can do is focus on the few feet right in front of you, keep your eyes on the yellow line in the middle and trust that you'll know where to turn when the next bend in the road appears.

This is like life. I have faced some truly dark moments, and don't we all? Sometimes I look at my kids, and all I can see is their sinful hearts. I cannot see how we are going to get from here - misbehaving kids - to there: Grown-up, mature adults. I just can't see it. A lot of times I feel like I am on a dark road, driving blind. Just as my physical eyes don't have the capacity to see more than a few feet in front of me on a dark, snowy night, so my spiritual eyes don't have the capacity to see very far. Actually, they can't see much at all.

When I have a dark day, the first thing that goes out the window is my perspective. I know that I can only take one day at a time. I know that if I cast it all on the Lord, He'll handle it for me. I know that I can trust my future to God. But it doesn't matter that I know all of this, if I don't act on it.

Yesterday was one such day that I honestly could not see the forest for the trees. I felt stuck, floundering in the mess of sin that one child and I made together. I couldn't breathe, thinking of a future that might not turn out the way I want it to. God, really? Are you even there? 

But this. This is why He specifically tells us not to worry. To take one day at a time. He only gives us strength for the day (hour) in front of us because we can't see the future. I only have the few feet in front of me to show me where to go on a dark road. In life, the only thing I can really see, if I take the time to look, is Jesus.

When I look at Him, I see what He's done for me. When I look at Him, I can see what He's doing for me. If I rest in Him, I feel His strength buoying me up through the darkest of days. If He is here with me in the mess of this day, this hour, He will also be with me five, ten, twenty years down the road. I am short-sighted, and because of this, all I can do is reach out and cling to Him.